Enough (Poem)

There comes a time
When you realize
That you'll never be enough
For someone you love
With all your heart

That you will always fall short
Of their expectations
Disappointing them
Hurting them repeatedly
Despite giving your all

That you will not
Be able to show them
The depth of your love
And how much of yourself
You continue to give
For their happiness

That you will always be
At the receiving end of
If you loved me
You would know this
You would do that

And you will repeatedly
Fail the test of love
Earning the punishment of
The silent treatment
The cold shoulder

And you will quietly accept it
Because you start to believe
In your insufficiency
Believing that you deserve it
That it's all your fault

If only you could try harder
If only you could be better
You would be able to fix it
So you keep trying
You keep pushing

But nothing you do is enough

And one day your pain
Crosses its threshold
You finally decide that
Enough is enough
This is not how
It's meant to be

You say - I am enough
Just as I am
My love is enough
As invisible as it may be
It does not come with
Terms and conditions

It comes with acceptance
Of who I am
And the person I love
So I stop fighting
I stop chasing
I gently let it go

I find an inner strength
And a reservoir of peace
That allows me to carry on
With calm acceptance
And love in my heart

Sandstorm (poem)

I walk into
A sandstorm
Completely blinded
Pushed and beaten
By winds and sand
Harsh and unyielding

I stumble and fall
But I get back up
Dust myself off
And start over
Even with nothing
Left to give

My body aches
To give up
To put an end
To this misery
Once and for all
But I push along

I feel lost
And lonely
Tired to the bone
But I go on
Surviving on
Faith alone

When the last flicker
Of hope is dying
The storm breaks
In front of me
Is a breathtaking view
A beautiful oasis

I see my reflection
In a tiny pond
And I realize
I have changed
It's not just a new place
It's also a new me

I sigh and look back
Upon all my struggles
The past and present
Coming together
Gently whispering that
It was all worth it... 

Surrender (Poem)

I choose to let go

Of all my anger
My bitterness
My resentment
I choose to forgive
Those who hurt me
Betrayed me

I choose to let go
Of my lofty goals
My great expectations
My harsh self-judgment
Other people's opinion
My rush, my hustle
My should haves

I choose to simply flow
With acceptance of "what is"
Doing what I want to do
Without being held prisoner
By the outcomes I desire
I surrender to the universe
And let it guide me

I choose to simply be
Be joyful, be calm
Be peaceful, be present
Be content, and be loved
As each new day unfolds
And that might be enough
For a life well lived...

Exactly where I need to be (Poem)

I'm exactly where I need to be
The pain that I feel is
Just what I need to feel
To become who I need to become
To meet my destiny

The place where I need to go
Is on the other side of
A long dark tunnel
I must brave the darkness
To get to the life I deserve

I must undertake this journey
Without letting fear and doubt
Hold me back, I must go on
Without getting tangled in
The web of what-ifs

Giving up is not an option
I owe it to myself
To persist and beat the odds
So I must keep pushing forward
No matter how hard it is

Until I reach that beautiful place
Where I can rest for a while
Soak in the beauty
Look back upon my struggles
And celebrate how far I have come